wake up call

I don’t sleep anymore

I don’t have anymore tears left to shed.

I got what I didn’t want and lost all I had.

The terrible irony.

I thought I had it figured out.

Well, you were always too smooth.

How come you didn’t set the alarm bells ringing?

I thought we had it made but now.

Looks like I was the bigger fool.

Or maybe I’ve gotta be thankful,

You didn’t let me make my biggest mistake.

Either way it hurts.

More than I thought ever possible.

They said “Love hurts”. Well now I know better.

Love doesn’t just hurt. It kills.

But I never heeded wise words and now I pay the price.

Some more tears and a load of heartaches later,

I’ll be holding out my heart to someone new.

And maybe I won’t  sleep again.

And maybe he will make me cry again.

But then, life is not worth living.

Without someone to share it with.

How come I didn’t see it coming?

Oh boy you got me blinded.

And now I pay with tears and heartache.

I gave you all of me.

No pride to hold me back.

Yes I gave you the power to hurt me.

And am I bruised and battered?

What a leap you took?

From sharing every little detail to freezing silence.

Just tell me where I went wrong.

We made plans to grow old together.

Silver hairs and golden silence it was to be.

Now all I have are the songs you gave me.

And they’re all such sad songs.

Did I miss my cue?

Or could it be you had it planned all along?