Silence

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Tonight is like any other night.
I am alone.
Your shadow left me.
I count the bruises of our passion.

Last night, you were my dream.
Lover,
Friend and comfort. Soulmate.

I tell myself.
Not again.

And here I am.
Craving to be yours.
Again.
And again.
This cycle of need makes me weak.

In your arms,
I am lost.
No today. No tomorrow.
Just now and us.

I wish you the best.
In life always.
And the walls come up again.

Shed your skin and be with me.
Words unspoken.
Pain in my heart.
Love flowing between us.
But not on our lips.

I miss you and yet I run.
Catch me and never let me go.
Until this pain is healed.

Silence.
Hold me and keep me warm.
Tonight.

Accidents of time.

Will anything fill up this emptiness?
The words unspoken.
I am trying to be strong.
But I don't know how to be anymore.
Should I grieve and mourn?
My heart is heavy and my tears ready.
Collateral damage of an inconsequential life.
It just wasn't your time or mine.
And here we go, smiling and eating and cooking
Like nothing ever happened.
But life has come to a standstill.
Something has died in me.
Your being became a momentary blip.
A faint flicker on the canvas of my space.
A part of my soul I gave up on.
In a universe that doesn't care.
And has made me equally uncaring.

Forgive me.
The crimes of my time.
The blood and the tears.
The folly of my age.
Accidents of recklessness.
My inability to be who I wanted to be.
And yet this is who I am.

Set me free.
From regret.
Heartache.
Fear and nightmares.
Grant me peace and another chance.

Dark heart

The rains are falling again

The mist has blinded my eyes

My heart is stilled by the emptiness

A hollow shell of dead dreams

Desolation reaches the depths of my soul

Pain is my constant companion and misery dogs my every step

Silence rings strange, pitter patter of my teardrops

Tonight the curtain falls

Sleep has fled from me

I cut my heart out and placed it on a platter

Now heartless and soulless I wander

I made my muddy bed and I have to lie in it

When will this night end?

Before I weep tears of blood

Give me my final redemption.