Silence

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Tonight is like any other night.
I am alone.
Your shadow left me.
I count the bruises of our passion.

Last night, you were my dream.
Lover,
Friend and comfort. Soulmate.

I tell myself.
Not again.

And here I am.
Craving to be yours.
Again.
And again.
This cycle of need makes me weak.

In your arms,
I am lost.
No today. No tomorrow.
Just now and us.

I wish you the best.
In life always.
And the walls come up again.

Shed your skin and be with me.
Words unspoken.
Pain in my heart.
Love flowing between us.
But not on our lips.

I miss you and yet I run.
Catch me and never let me go.
Until this pain is healed.

Silence.
Hold me and keep me warm.
Tonight.

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I know there is a hole in your heart

That feels like you are being swallowed

Your world is sinking and you are drowning

Grief and pain so sharp

You sweat droplets of blood

Crushed, bruised and torn

The tears in your eyes blurs your vision

Your head echoes with thoughts

I know you are afraid and shaky

There seems no end to this night

Why is this happening you ask

I'm sorry I have no answers

I cannot save you anymore

Let me sing you to sleep and dream

My sweet, we shall find peace soon

Ode to a virtual friend

hello stranger, 

friend and confidante,

sometimes you could be on the other side

far away, beyond my way

and then a word, a line, a song shared 

and it all makes sense

these connections, conversations 

no one can explain

i've tried. i know

i'm just happy you are here 

and sometimes there

in my life, in my world, 

in my inbox and smartphone

under the same sun and moon

why should every relationship have a name?

somethings are beyond definition

it's enough that we clicked

over a joke, a picture, imaginary coffee

and shared a minute 

of understanding and enlightenment

wisdom and truth

that's all there is to a beautiful life

the way we touch each other's existence

giving meaning to a mundane moment

enriching life and adding color

a kind word, cheering us up unexpectedly

sobering advice that seems just right for me

i am grateful for the solidarity

and empathy and the arguments;

the answers and the questions

the humor and the faith

and just so you know

you will never be alone

somewhere in the shadows 

i lurk to bring you a smile

when you least expect it

you would do the same for me

thank you for those many seconds

when life became beautiful

and i could begin to dream again

Gone

You said you were born to make me happy
That I was the answer to your prayers
All the lovely things you said
Filled me with hope for our forever
But suddenly all is gone
You have turned into a stranger
There is a huge wall up between us
I can't seem to break through
Try as I may, it's useless
I am all ears but you refuse to speak
How did this come about?
I never pretended to be perfect
Yes! I was lonely and angry
Now I am lost and broken
How could you do this to us?
Have you forgotten everything so fast?
Now you say you are not sure of yourself like before
I surely didn't see this coming
I guess it's time for me to shut down
You tell me not to be sad
But it kills me to know you're gone
I told myself I won't shed another tear
That I'm better off but it's all lies I tell myself
It's not helping much
Everyone says time will heal
And yeah in time the pain will subside
But for now I'll sing my sad songs
And after all is said and done
I know I'll find love again
One like never before
And it'll be sunny days once more.