Apo and me

This one is for the one man who has always been there for me.


Apo!Apo!
Lift me up again on to your shoulder
And show me the twinkling lights of Kohima.
Seat me under the pear tree and bounce me on your knees.
Sing me the song about aeroplanes and trains you saw in Dimapur.
Get me an ice cream from there too and not just papayas and litchees.
Tell me again about the big buses that ply in Kohima.
When are we moving to town to our new house?
Did you hear the song I sang for your from the balcony last week?
Why did you come home looking like a stranger and make me cry?
I love the black hat that you brought home.
And the big umbrella I can sit under and play.
Sing me some hindi songs again please?
Can I try my hand at your typewriter?

Apa! Apa!
Let's go for a ride on your noisy bike please.
I swear I won't fall off, I will cling to you like how you showed me to.
Please take me to the river again and teach me how to catch a fish.
Let's go check the bamboo grooves and catch some frogs.
I chewed so much gum today, we can glue many cicadas for sure.
Show me how to lift the latch and launch a catapult.
Now I know how to dress a chicken and cut wood the right way.
Help me lift this basket to my head. Oh! So that's how it is done?
Let's go buy a radio and some jeans.
And can I have some singaras too?

Apa! Apa!
Take me to town to eat chow and momos.
And say hello to the azaleas at the War Cemetery.
Or maybe have chai and puri at your office canteen.
Those aunties might give me a piece of cake again.
You have so many friends at work?
We have to fill up my forms and please sign this for me?
Thank you and now please let me go to the class picnic?
Where should I go to attend college?
Followed your footsteps and this is awesome.
My holidays begin soon and I need you to pick me up from hostel.
I should have done better and made you prouder.
No. I want to explore my options.
It's okay. I'll be gone for just three years....five years.
I am a big girl now. I know what is right for me.
Why can't I be with this boy? I'll be just fine.
Leave me alone. Why don't you understand?

Apa! Apa!
You were right. I should have listened to you.
Now I will. You know better.
I just want to be your little girl.
Don't send me away yet! I don't want to go.
Apa! I'm unhappy. He doesn't want me and I can't do this anymore.
Can I come back home please?
Thank you Apa. You always have my back.
I am sorry for embarrassing you.
I will try harder.

Apa! Apa!
Please stay awhile. Let's watch a movie.
Discuss the books you taught me to love.
I know you are bored and tired these days.
Can I do something to help? Come stay with me.
Let's go on a trip.
It's my turn to show you something fun to do.
Let's fry dal and chicken and some pumpkin.
Like good ole times.
While Mom watch us amused.
Daddy and his little girl.

Bye-bye Blackbird

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Bye-bye Blackbird! 
Tonight I fly, into the unknown.
The night is thick and laden with emotions.
Lights blinking in the distance.
Misty eyed, I grope in the haze.
Guide me home twinkling stars.
The moon hangs like an old man.
She's tired. 
Like me.
Ripe litchi, sweet on my lips.
My throat is parched.
I need my sleep.

Tomorrow I will hum a new tune.
Bye-bye Blackbird.
Another crow will take your place.

Don't.

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No.
Don't go making me weak at the knees.
Your eyes say things I can't let my ears hear yet.
Your wild kisses make me fly.
I am in danger of falling.
Falling deep.

No.
I am not afraid of loving.
I am afraid to be blue.
Alone after knowing your warmth.
Call me a butterfly.

Yes.
You make me dizzy and sway.
Don't make me change my mind.
I know how to make you melt.
Like you know how to make me shiver.

Yes.
Let's keep it intense. You and me.
Warm and sweet.
But.
Don't make me fall.
Let's grow with love.
With friendship and golden companionship.
In the end, only kindness matters.

Black

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I know there is a hole in your heart

That feels like you are being swallowed

Your world is sinking and you are drowning

Grief and pain so sharp

You sweat droplets of blood

Crushed, bruised and torn

The tears in your eyes blurs your vision

Your head echoes with thoughts

I know you are afraid and shaky

There seems no end to this night

Why is this happening you ask

I'm sorry I have no answers

I cannot save you anymore

Let me sing you to sleep and dream

My sweet, we shall find peace soon

Borrowed Time

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A little piece of Heaven. 

A day in paradise. 

A stroll in the mist holding on to you.

A flight up into the clouds and above.
You showed me a world of dreams.

Memories for a lifetime and more. 

Wish I could have it all and then again, a little more time. 

And Kelsang be our haunt in the hills we discovered

Winding roads to the abode of the deodars

We found our little chalet.

For a little while on borrowed time.

Thank you all the same for I am transfixed, 

Frozen in a surreal moment but the warmth says 

I'm alive and that I'll live on forever in your heart.

Melancholy

There you are, my constant companion.
I was beginning to wonder.
If you had left me too.

I am tired tonight.
My sagging spirits refuse to be lifted.
Unanswered calls.
I know the answer to that already.
Pick up the phone and tell me you still care.
Is this my destiny?
To wait into oblivion.

You steal away like the clouds on a sunny day.
I sit under a tree and trace the shadows of its leaves.
My life is spinning out of control.
Like fallen leaves tossed about by a broom.
And find their way to ashes.

All is lost. Meaningless.
We walk on.
With a weight on our hearts.
Melancholy, you are a dull companion.
Like a bag no one wants to carry.

Storm

A storm rages outside,
Like the one inside my head.
On nights like this, I think about you.
How you enticed me to sell you my soul.
I don't blame you at all.
I wanted to believe your lies.
'Cause for a short time, those lies were my only joy.
But the truth did set me free,
When I finally saw through the mist.
And my tears they flow endlessly as do your silly excuses.
I am not over you yet but I will never be under your spell again.