Borrowed Time

Photo by RN

A little piece of Heaven. 

A day in paradise. 

A stroll in the mist holding on to you.

A flight up into the clouds and above.
You showed me a world of dreams.

Memories for a lifetime and more. 

Wish I could have it all and then again, a little more time. 

And Kelsang be our haunt in the hills we discovered

Winding roads to the abode of the deodars

We found our little chalet.

For a little while on borrowed time.

Thank you all the same for I am transfixed, 

Frozen in a surreal moment but the warmth says 

I'm alive and that I'll live on forever in your heart.

Melancholy

There you are, my constant companion.
I was beginning to wonder.
If you had left me too.

I am tired tonight.
My sagging spirits refuse to be lifted.
Unanswered calls.
I know the answer to that already.
Pick up the phone and tell me you still care.
Is this my destiny?
To wait into oblivion.

You steal away like the clouds on a sunny day.
I sit under a tree and trace the shadows of its leaves.
My life is spinning out of control.
Like fallen leaves tossed about by a broom.
And find their way to ashes.

All is lost. Meaningless.
We walk on.
With a weight on our hearts.
Melancholy, you are a dull companion.
Like a bag no one wants to carry.

Storm

A storm rages outside,
Like the one inside my head.
On nights like this, I think about you.
How you enticed me to sell you my soul.
I don't blame you at all.
I wanted to believe your lies.
'Cause for a short time, those lies were my only joy.
But the truth did set me free,
When I finally saw through the mist.
And my tears they flow endlessly as do your silly excuses.
I am not over you yet but I will never be under your spell again.

Running.....

Sometimes it feels so much easier to run away from it all than to face it.

And sometimes, you can't run even if you want to.

And sometimes, you have to keep running to keep it going.

Right now, I am keeping it running.

For reasons I know best.

I have stuck to my guns and faced my demons.

I will do it again if the need arises.

People around me are running too. In the way they know best.

I don't judge them or blame them.

That is how they are and the only way they know perhaps.

Life is all about running things.

Keeping it running. Sometimes running away and sometimes running home.

And we all need to run to keep our sanity on some days.

I just need us to keep holding hands as we run this stretch together.

Don't let go of my hand. I won't let go of yours.

And we keep running this race we found ourselves a part of.

Ode to a virtual friend

hello stranger, 

friend and confidante,

sometimes you could be on the other side

far away, beyond my way

and then a word, a line, a song shared 

and it all makes sense

these connections, conversations 

no one can explain

i've tried. i know

i'm just happy you are here 

and sometimes there

in my life, in my world, 

in my inbox and smartphone

under the same sun and moon

why should every relationship have a name?

somethings are beyond definition

it's enough that we clicked

over a joke, a picture, imaginary coffee

and shared a minute 

of understanding and enlightenment

wisdom and truth

that's all there is to a beautiful life

the way we touch each other's existence

giving meaning to a mundane moment

enriching life and adding color

a kind word, cheering us up unexpectedly

sobering advice that seems just right for me

i am grateful for the solidarity

and empathy and the arguments;

the answers and the questions

the humor and the faith

and just so you know

you will never be alone

somewhere in the shadows 

i lurk to bring you a smile

when you least expect it

you would do the same for me

thank you for those many seconds

when life became beautiful

and i could begin to dream again

Closer

Darling, can you hold me closer?

I am on fire and so are you.

Locked in each other’s passion,

As waves of ecstasy roll over us

We dance to a tune so intense.

In a rhythm so natural,

Our hearts beat together.

As the head rush breaks into music in our ears,

Slick sweat run down your face.

Your eyes glisten with mad loving

And I taste longing on your lips.

Don’t let me go until I have died,

And live again in your arms tonight.

I want to know

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I want to hear what you have to say about me

I remember our december through june

I want to hear what you want

All the songs you played

The lines you wrote for me

Borrowed and stolen

I want to hear again how you have lost it all

How you know now it was not to be

I want to see you smile again

The drunken eyes and the wide mouth

I want to hear you say it again

That it is all gone

And then you say it was all a mistake

I want to see you, the loss in your eyes

How you killed a part of me

I am done hearing your lies

I remember the windy sunday

That sealed my fate
Walking hand in hand
On empty streets

I want to hear what you have to say about me

Now that I have moved on

Miles and worlds apart

I want to know how you are living without me

But I can now say goodbye

And my heart and eyes agree

It doesn't make any difference anymore
It doesn't mean a thing no more